Wednesday, February 27, 2013

He's Here!

Henry Jude Hinson was born on February 26, 2013 at 3:37pm. He weighs 9lbs 1oz and is 18.25 inches long. He is absolutely perfect!

God has a sense of humor and I sometimes feel as though he challenges me at every corner with said sense of humor. As many of you know my biggest weakness (I guess one of, as there are many...) is my desire to have total control of my environment. Anything monumentous that has happened in my life has not been without it's plan except for the births of my two children.

Henry's plan was that he would be delivered by c-section on Monday, March 4 at exactly 39 weeks. In my mind this was a great plan. I knew when it was coming and knew how much time I had to get ready only all that went by the wayside on Monday night. Monday night was a rough one. I "woke up" (I use quotations because I actually didn't sleep much at all Monday night) knowing that something wasn't right. I didn't feel good. I didn't feel like I should feel. But thankfully I had a neonatal stress test at 10:00 Tuesday morning so I knew that if something was wrong they would know and we would go from there. When I finally got hooked up to the NST monitors I was having contractions about 7-8 minutes a part. I drove myself to the hospital and was in labor and didn't even know it. I mean how dense does one person need to be? No wonder I didn't "feel well" I was having a baby! Keep in mind Nathan was in Louisville still because February 26 at 3:30pm was not in the plan.

Let me tell you contractions are for the BIRDS! I had never experienced any part of laboring before, and woman who do that all natural all the way, woo my hat is off to you! Around 1:00pm the maternal doctor came in and said "today was the day" and we were going to head into the OR around 2:30 so I needed to call my family and tell them to hit the road. I can't imagine what it was like for Nathan to get that call and to hurry around and drive an hour and half to get to me by 2:30. I will tell you he didn't make it at 2:30 but thankfully we weren't in an emergency situation so they waited for Nathan and just about 15 minutes later we heard Henry Jude for the first time. Much like hearing Oliver cry for the first time it was an amazing moment to think "we did it" holy cow we brought a human into this world. I remember them bringing him over to me and seeing his chubby cheeks but not much after that. I know at some point Henry and Nathan left for the NICU at Good Sam to get Henry ready for transport to Children's Hospital.

About 2 hours after Henry was born we said our goodbyes as he was taken to Children's Hospital and set up residence in their NICU.  Like no other time in my life i was so thankful for medication that day. It made that goodbye much much easier.

Henry continues to do really well in his recovery. Doctors are watching the size of his ventricles closely as it is a good possibility that Henry is going to require a second surgery to place a shunt to help his body process the excess spinal fluid. He had another ultrasound of his head today and we are waiting to get those results. Again it's very likely Henry is going to need a shunt it's just a matter of when they insert it but it will probably be towards the end of next week.

We know that in all things God is in control and have been so encouraged by Henry's first few days here on this earth!

More now than ever before does Psalm 139 bring me great comfort... I know that as much as I already love this chunky monkey, the Father above loves him even more! God says so in His word: "For you created [Henry] in my inmost being: you knit [Henry] together in my womb. I praise you because [Henry] is fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well. [Henry's] frame was not hidden from You when he was made in the secret place. When [Henry] was woven together in the depths of the earth, Your eyes saw his unformed body. All the days ordained for him were written in your book before even one of them came to be."

All that to say that Henry is perfect in every way imaginable!

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Relocation

I assure you I have not given up on this blog...I have however given up the ideal that I will be able to keep it as current as I once thought I could. I will be 37 weeks pregnant on Monday and let me tell you what ... it is kickin' my butt! For the last 3 to 4 weeks I have had little energy to come home and do much more then read a few books with Oliver and watch,  my 10,000th episode of Mickey Mouse Club House...but I digress... I imagine in the coming days and weeks there are going to be lots of posts as Henry is scheduled to be delivered in a mere 2 weeks time and I'll just be hanging out. It is my goal that once he is here that I will update often so that people know how to pray and how all of us are adjusting!

I think for the most part I have been in denial about the "relocation" portion of this pregnancy. It has always seemed so far off into the distance but I can assure when I roll out of our drive way tomorrow  at 3:30pm eastern standard time it will not be far off--it will be the here and now. Leaving the loves of my life for an unknown amount of time overwhelms me to the point of speechlessness, and those who know me well or really anyone that has met me once would find this statement hard to believe. But it's here. It's go time. How in the world did 9 months go by so quickly?

When I was pregnant with Oliver people would tell me over and over "oh this is the easy part" and I would politely smile all the while in my head I would be giving them this grand lecture about how losing the ability to put your own shoes on is not the easy part. But now that I have Oliver, they were right, pregnancy is the easy part. The last several days in my quiet time I have come to the realization that the easiest part of Henry's life is coming to a close; as long as he is on the inside he is safe, he is protected, he doesn't have to undergo who knows how many surgeries and procedures, and then I don't have to experience the heartache that will be watching my child go through these difficult things. It's also not been lost on me in the last several days that God responds to us this very same way. God doesn't allow His children to stay in places where things are easy. He tests us, He molds us, He forces us to face a world, that at times, may be unkind to us.

My friend Tyler, through her journey with her sweet son Owen,  often shares excerpts from a devotional called Streams in the Desert by L.B. Cowman, I always found it fascinating how this devotional met Tyler right were she was and offered her such comfort. When we found out about Henry's condition I started reading it each morning and it has done the same for me.

Here is a portion of today's reading: "Even the fact that we face a trial proves that there is something very precious to our Lord in us, or else He would not spend so much time and energy on us. Christ would not test us if He did not see the precious metal of faith mingled with the rocky core of our nature, and it is to refine us into purity and beauty that He forces us through the fiery ordeal."

Leaving Nathan and Oliver is nothing short of God forcing me through the fiery ordeal, but never once does it talk about Him leaving me to deal with it on my own. God reminds me He is providing our strength through the prayers and encouragement of many, some from people we've never met, God reminds me through a gift shop window that He has been at every appointment, every stress test, every ultrasound and He isn't going away anytime soon.

I know that the Lord doesn't take pleasure in seeing His children go through trials, but He sends us through them to refine our faith, to make us stronger but most importantly to glorify His name. So tomorrow afternoon when I leave the two most important people to me to make the trip to Cincinnati, I will do so knowing that God has called me to this time of testing. God has called my family to this because Henry matters to God, because I matter to God, because Oliver matters to God, because Nathan matters to God and through our story someone else is going to realize that they, too, matter to God.

"2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance." James 1:2-3


-Erin-